I'm never quite sure what to do about my thought method.

It works fine for most things. I process quickly once I internalize information, though I am often slow about that. I can analyze and go deep into things. Though my memory is terrible. And maybe that's a part of it. Tabi focuses heavily on some subjects, and so she frequently applies lessons from movies, TV, just about anything entertainment media we view as lessons to them. Sometimes the impression of the "ah-huh" when someone on a TV show quotes some good advice that she views applicable reminds me of Bible-thumping. But that's not the point. The point is that I don't process things that way. Maybe because my brain doesn't focus on the same things long and hard. Maybe it's bad memory. Maybe the lines are hazy of complex and mine do tend to go different directions. I'm sure it's also partly because while I view TV as capable of giving sound advice I'm naturally very skeptical of taking literal meaning to heard from enetertainment media.


Sometimes an idea is a good idea, but it being in a movie doesn't justify it or anything else, necessarily.

And now there's worries and concerns about her worth, and, well...


It's so hard to find the proper line between turning her over my knee and striping her ass and treating her like a princess, to show her now much she's worth. Despite all the trials and troubles she's had. Hell. She might like to pretend they make her less somehow, but life is what happens in it. To you, or from you. And she's had a lot of life, and made a hell of a lot more out of what was laid on her plate than anyone I know has made sense of.

That tells me very well about what kind of worth she has.

And I'm still counting.