Tired.

I'm definitely taking the melatonin tonight, maybe even two of them, but I need something to do either besides that or along with it. I don't doubt I'll wake up early tomorrow. Randomly, I've been waking up nice and early the past few days. The issue is getting up before I need to do anything and being worn through the day. It's a long day from 7 AM anyway, but the stress and time change and any missed hours aren't helping. I'm wondering what tricks there are that I'm missing that make dealing with that missing sleep so much more possible and effective. I can't be the only one feeling this, yet it seems like I'm usually the one running around starting things with a small debate or placeholder for what's coming up, organizing for bigger things rather than doing. That could be sheer frustration too, or my eagerness to have job and or classes pick up ASAP. It will be very nice to have something to do again. I've had goals, so I'm really hoping I can quickly orient myself to just carry a class focus with my goals.

Hopefully this shift and help with the exhaustion will also mean a shift in date night activities. I love the ones we have now, but I feel terrible when I end up exhausted and not contributing to them well. I just need to make sure my sleep comes hard and early, and my work does too. If I really organize my days around sleep and ass kicking early morning, this looks very doable to me.

I just wish that I didn't get this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach, now and again, that someone doens't have the same kind of faith. Heck if I know who though.

But I hope to prove them wrong, though, whomever they might be.