Remember when I used to name these things with mildly appropriate song quotes or titles? That was a lot of fun, I kind of miss it. I just never seem to have the same luck plucking a good quote or song out of my head once I get going now. So I guess we're going with the random turn of phrase thing. Feels so random and unspectacular. Meh.
Maybe I'll compile a list of titles and quotes to use for this.
Well, some things have looked up today. The kitten and I had some arguments, but despite that we both got bent out of shape about how they happened, we resolved the argument quite quickly it seemed to me, had fun, and I think I even learned something from it. That seems to be the subject so often lately that I don't want to linger on it just too much today however. I think the important thing is that I remember what I'm taking away from it so I can do better in the future because of today. Give a little more meaning to things, I suppose; I like to think that in some vague sense everything means something, but a little help with that never hurt.
So today I got myself to talk with some of my professors, and checked out my schedule. While I'd been a little distracted and uncertain about this upcoming summer, as much as I liked the last summer session, now I think I know what I want to do with it and it makes all the difference. I'll be signing up for that Friday likely, so I can take tomorrow and Thursday to fill out the paper work and pick my classes, and then Monday I'll put in for summer employment once more so I can get first pick of the desk jobs. As long as it's some place I can read a book or do school work during the downtime, I'll love it, though a little internet access never hurt. Even if I know that I'd have to avoid using it more than barely on anything but the most dead of days.
I also got complimented by a professor. He doesn't seem like the type to flatter, though I dunno that he's hardbitten or difficult to get by, but the fact is I hadn't read the material on these things, and I'd been behind on learning the system we're using for the project, and I've been answering questions with theoretical and questions that have apparently impressed him; he not only said I seemed to be "sharp" but suggested that I might be capable, or even prefer, doing a solo experiment over a group. Now, I do ideally want to practice group dynamics and continue to improve my social skills and leadership abilities, which seem to have been on upward trend since my Freshman year of college (believe it or not, when I'm "in the zone" I'm not bad at it, unassuming or antisocial as I can be when I feel more like hermiting). But given this particular class and the experiments dynamics... I'm going to look over the assignment and make sure that I can handle the subjects, work loud, and decisions on my own. It'll be making a little more work for me, but in my experience that enjoyment and urge to take initiative far outweighs extra work for me personally, since so often it's motivation or engagement with the material more than ability that is my issue.
Engaged. That's what the other professor said; that I seemed far more engaged than I had been the past times they'd met with me. It seems good to me. That despite any issues or fights, I can trend upward. As long as I maintain that trend it could mean the world. And the funny thing is, for some reason I can't place, I am feeling more engaged. The work suddenly interested me more today than it had in the past week or two, as if someone just flipped a switch half an hour into my first class and left it up.
...now I just need to stem my fascination with the stream of movies coming out, after a discussion with Tabi earlier left me feeling a need to research everything I can about the upcoming DC and Marvel films. I should lay off on that, though it does give me other ideas; to be explored another time.
For now, I'm just tired.
Time to grab the prerequisite Z's for class tomorrow.
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