I'm going to have to figure out a few more things about my kitten yet. Or perhaps, just stop being so damn dense. It does tend to be an issue of mine. Sometimes I'm spot on with a sudden surge of caution about someone. If I don't trust somebody, I can be pretty well skeptical and good about reading them- at least I think so. The issue comes when I don't feel distrustful. And I certainly trust my kitten.

So... the problem is that sometimes she doesn't think clearly. I sure as hell don't, no one does, but when she gets stressed enough or focuses on one thing agitating her it can jump to extremes. And she's always so good about telling me afterwards. Explaining and apologizing. She's warned me these things happen to.

The issue is... when they happen I tend to take it seriously 95% of the time, and forget to think what might be causing it. Things seem to get really serious and she gets very distraught and acts out or panics... and I take it all on face value because I trust her. It's part of the problem, I think. It's something she does. She's something I love. And something I need to be in control of. To dominate. But that requires either overwhelming force, or understanding. And I vastly prefer understanding and finesse, never mind the crushing iron of my usual straight forward approach to things.

So... how do I go about getting myself beyond this mistake, out of the bad habit? How do I keep emotionally attached and close to her, and give her that connection as much as she deserves... but stay far enough back to have a clearer view, and perhaps more control? How does one keep distance from something they want, maybe need, to pull close?

Not sure.

Always questions with this practice.

I'm not sure if this is one of the fun ones or not just yet. But I'd like to think I might at least have some theories before it happens again.