I need to work on my devious side more.

A lot more.

There are practical reasons and fun reasons, and as many for the kitten as for myself or in general. However, today I say this in particular because I think she has outdone me by spades. And while she had the experience advantage, I don't think this can stand. So I'm going to have to find some things to do about it. A few ways to learn or get ideas what I like. Some new perspectives. I'll have to work on those some during my free time.

And I've discovered a new kink today. I had some inclination of an interest before- or a curiosity, more like- but today I have to confirm it. Kitten tried it out a bit on display for me to see how I'd take to it, and I certainly took to it. I felt excited, physically, mentally, and sexually. I felt worried a bit watching, concerned and with that nagging serious of safety precautions my mind was screaming to ask her right away despite my trust that she'd not do anything dangerous without looking up all the safety measures available to her first. But all the same. Watching it was strange and visceral. My heart fluttered at first, and then a smooth and easy, steady excitement light as air built its way up, up, and up with it. In a way, I have to imagine it's what sky diving is like. Once it finished, I found myself going hard, though. I did like this one. A fair deal.

I think... I want to try and integrate this to other things a bit. Lot's of nice potential combinations.

As nervous as the idea makes me though... also want to try my hand at it.