A Little Lost

I have to admit that I'm never really sure which way things are headed. Typically, however, I'm not absolutely horrible about understanding which direction Tabi's mind is coming from when she moves to topics. I can't predict her hardly at all, kitten has too much brain for me and it goes all over sometimes. But normally I can follow the trail and get a decent idea, I feel like.

Today, sometimes, however, things feel like they came out of nowhere without any discernible reason.

I'm sure I can seem like that to people at times. I've had other people do that to me, where they seemed to pull a thought out of their ass and latch onto it. Normally she has a process. A complex, hyper active one often, that jumps about, but still a process. Most people do, if you stop and look into the situation a little, and you can figure out where they're getting the ideas they're getting. Today some topics sprung up seemingly from out of nowhere though and it's been making me reflect a bit on what it means. Not the topics in specific, as much as they're on my mind and worth talking about.

But what does it mean that I still cannot consistently predict her or always get a correct analysis on her reasons for things out of a few guesses once looking at a situation? Sure, I empathize with her much better and have much more insight, since we know each other as well as we do. 90% of the time it's very clear and I like it a lot. Given enough time though, and background information, I tend to pride myself on my ability to read people. Usually I'm too in things going on, naive, nice, or whatever else to try. I've never been one to manipulate people much purposely, or to politic for personal gains. So a lot of the times it's trying to empathize, understand them, plain curiosity, et cetera. And yet for Tabi, as much as I understand her perfectly...

I can't seem to READ her like I read other people. I understand a lot of her from knowing her well, yes. But that's different.

So should I be taking some meaning from this? Is it a good thing that she's at a point where I can't seem to read her? Is it because I'm too emotionally invested?

Wish I could say. Usually I dismiss these things, but today it feels important for some reason. At some point I'll have to figure that out. But today, I think, we have other things to do. Time to find out what they are.