I'm not sure what exactly went right today, but it certainly seemed to. Money is tighter than I knew with my family. I suppose it really does make sense- they have three kids and they've paid fully for our educations through private schools, and not skimped on other living, even if we never had the latest or greatest of anything. Maybe we got spoiled or coddled ab it too much at times. But my parents both came from families without much in way of means, so I think in the end I just overestimated how well they'd done for themselves. Despite this issue, however, I found out that I've really been creating problems with them.

Yes, they disagree with a lot of stuff I've done.

Yeah, they've put pressure on me that I don't need and disagreed when I felt it was important.

I can't really agree with them, make it easy, or see eye-to-eye. But I've been assuming that when they disagreed they'd react one way, looked at the things they've said and not pursued it or made assumptions because it was smiply discouraging. It meant I got a lot wrong. And in a lot of ways, I still need to keep my back straight and look ahead and do what I need to do for myself.

It was just... nice to hear them say that as much as they worry and try to show me what they think are the best ways, they agree- they know sometimes I'll feel something is worth doing even though they don't like it, or if it's not the safest route. It's not like I can not worry them somehow. It's just....


I guess it's good to hear that, no matter what happens, even if they can't agree or help, that they're on my side. Even when I'm arguing with them. Funny, as in some ways, it makes arguing with them that much easier. I just need to make sure I take that bit of trust and freedom and do them proud as well as my kitten.

And myself.